Sunday, September 30, 2007

My very own Van Gogh :)

It's a good thing that I'm actually investing money on butter, eggs and flour instead of shoes.

Yep,I've religiously embraced the art of baking in a rigorous manner ;)

So here's a sneak peek on my latest profound interest - baking (sheesh I sound like a boring old granny with 50 granchildren to feed).My first ever butter cake plus a simple mixed salad with vinaigrette dressing.
Bon appetit! :)

Next on my list: chocolate mud cheesecake and bread butter pudding........And there we have another 12 more hours to go before buka puasa.Clever of me ey :/

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Girlfriends :)


I wonder...

I just watched Ahmadinejad's Question and Answer Session at Columbia University. From the Columbia President introducing him(which is quite nasty) to Ahmadinejad's own speech. It's an interesting session, I really like how he answers the questions posed. I wonder if we can ever have such freedom of speech. Our politicians are not able to stand such accusations or questions if it's posed to them. They like to hide behind what is said to be 'sensitive' issues instead of addressing them. We can never have such open discussions, coming from a local U, everything is politicized, the lecturers have to constantly remind their students that anything discussed in class should remain within the walls of the classroom.

How are we supposed to learn when there exists such constraints even if these forms of discussions are only for academic purposes- you know, broadening the student's mind. How are we supposed to breed students who think outside the box when you don't even allow them to think properly and freely even inside the box?

Funny how we are supporting the protests against the military right now in Myanmar, the message is LOUD and CLEAR, when we don't even allow our people to protest for what they think is right. Ermm... Batu Burok?

Thursday, September 27, 2007

running away

Perfect stranger

Slow down,take my hand and we'll walk slowly..
I know time is of the essence,but why are you in such a hurry?
You'll end up leaving me alone in this godforsaken place
Please sir, I can't keep up with your pace..

He looked at me,that stranger..
I can't help but quiver
Perhaps it's the effect of the rain,
Or the fact that the sky has weighed its moist upon me
I was convinced,or at least half convinced that it wasn't because of him..

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Now Playing: "Throw it All Away" by Zero 7

I think I'm addicted to this song. The other bands that I've been listening to a lot for these past few days include I Am Robot And Proud, The Go! Team, Stars, Feist, Bjork,Tegan&Sara, The Album Leaf. I hate shifting from one song to another, which explains why I tend to replay a particular song over and over again till I get sick of it - just another one of my old,unusual habits.

Anyway,I feel like I'm not my usual self lately, which is probably a good thing. And when I say that, what I really mean is that I don't really talk much anymore and that I'm not in the mood to do a lot of things nowadays - like talking to people, hanging out, go for a movie, or even SHOPPING (can you believe that?!). Well,presumably because I'm fasting,but usually that's not the case. In fact, that was never the case.

Why do I have the feeling that I'm starting to turn into a loner?

I guess we all turn into one at some point of age, or time.

On second thoughts,maybe it's just me. The fact that I've had an overdose of fun, or that I hang out too much before this might explain the behaviour. So much to a point where I get bored of doing the same thing, with the same people (no offense though).

I mean,I actually enjoy my own company more than I ever did, which is pretty weird,no? I haven't gone out to the city for like almost two weeks (despite the two-week break), haven't bought a single Krispy Kreme in ages, the last movie I watched was 'Hairspray' which was a night before John left for Perth, and I forgot when was the last time I had coffee with my friends! So to those of you who are wondering what the hell have I been doing, the answer is simple: the obvious - sleeping. Gee I feel tired, sleepy and drained out almost all the time.

I think it's about time for me to adjust back to my original biological clock,speaking of which I should be sleeping in a bit....and start exercising soon!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Not a good time to talk.

Now Playing: "Shit Talker" by The Headphones

I'm pissed. So pissed that I don't want to talk about it.So pissed that I don't give a damn if you think it's stupid.So pissed that I don't care what other people say. Extremely pissed and hurt beyond words. Oh wait - maybe it's my fcuking hormones, or the fact that I'm tired. Whatever....I'm pissed.

Maybe it's ten times worse when you're actually pissed at someone you care for - the ones you treat like your own family.

Maybe I should stop before I say things I might regret later. But yeah,I'm basically fcuking pissed... that's my fcuking story.

Happy Birthday!

Now Playing: "Soft Revolution" by Stars

23rd September. Happy 23rd Birthday, dear brother!!!

I'm thinking of getting him a kick-ass birthday present - in need of some kinda help though.

Well, since I can't afford what seems to be the love of his life - sneakers, I was thinking of something else:

a) perfume
b) books
c) rugby jersey (enough of football jerseys already!)
d) a really nice shirt
e) DVD of his fav. bands

So,which one tops the list? Let me know if there's anything else worth getting.

I know it's the thought that counts, but I really want to surprise him plus I think he deserves a great present from me this time =)

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Listening to :Midnight Hour - Running Away

Stumbled upon this song in myspace and now I can't get it out of my head. I don't really check my myspace account. I only use the account to access stuffs inside it, like the the latest songs, etc. Woke up at 9am today, it's late considering the fact that I have debate practice that's supposed to start by that time.I arrived in Gombak around 9.5o(sempat isi minyak) and only 30 minutes after that we started to debate. I honestly think that my debating life right now is in quite in a mess but I guess I need time to settle down properly in my 1st sem. I never partnered with any seniors before for any debates(well exception for Lutfi since he's my League partner and Hadi for Rector's cup), so partnering Suhaib and Kiyama today was a different experience.

I have my 2nd test for Contract this coming Wednesday and an Islamic Worldview test sometime next week too. Life hasn't been fun when you live for exams, since I'm taking 7 subjects and I have 2 papers every week. So, it's like 1 month of continuous tests. Did I mention that there's a book review that's supposed to be halfway through now and yours truly is only at pg. 22 now? I'm trying my best to function under duress.

I'm getting along pretty well with my room mates. I enjoy being their room mates but sometimes it's quite frustrating not to have any single Law student in your block. Speaking of them, it just reminded me that I need to burn and bring along a few CD's for them. Wonder if I can force them to watch Friday Night Lights since they've already brainwashed me with Sin Chan. Wish we could have the Indonesian version instead. It could have been funnier.

Nabila : I'll do it sometime next week cay? If you dont mind.

Saturday, September 22, 2007

It's about time

Now Playing: "Get it together" by The Go! Team

I got it! My first ever job! =)

It's in this cosy Italian restaurant called Sale l Pepe, right across Belissimo & Piccolo Mondo. My first try-out was about 2 days ago. Went there at approximately 7pm and the rest, as they say, is history - one filled with bullshitting my way through the tough tide of domestic chores, that is =P Well, it wasn't so much of domestic work - it was more of waitressing than anything else.

Anyway, ever read or watched Godfather? Well, I've always had a sense of admiration or rather a deep curiosity towards the Italian culture, in general - the food, the language, the network, the people (just the guys actually) & anything of the likes. So I was quite flattered when the owner invited me to work at his restaurant as I was making my way back home. That itself has saved my time handing out resumes which I never did anyway, thanks to him. Lol.

To tell you the truth, I was pretty freaked out before the try-out knowing that my experience in waitressing (if any) was almost nonexistent and the fact that I've crapped about my "past experiences" working in some other restaurant, which were obviously a complete myth and a cover-up line on my part. (Somehow I had a feeling that they knew I was lying). 'Come can't screw it, not this one', were the words echoing through my pessimistic-wired mind.

So did I screw up? I don't know and frankly, I don't really care. I'm just thankful I've secured the job so far. Needless to say, the 2-hour training was indeed an invaluable experience for me - from the table arrangements, the placement of dockets, serving etiquettes & techniques, how to arrange the cutleries fine-dining style, how to set up the table,etc – everything’s completely new to me.

The people there are great. Everyone's so sweet and incredibly nice despite my incompatibliity at my first day of work. Or at least they did a great job pretending.Lol. Anyway, it's amazing to witness how the chefs prepare those authentic Italian dishes with your very own eyes. Beats watching Jamie Oliver on TV =) And I like the fact that almost everyone's Italian hence I find it amusing when they speak to each other (and to some of their customers) in their mother tongue. I guess I can see why women (and gay men alike) make a big fuss over Italian guys, generally speaking. They're such gentlemen and pretty sexy I must say..

Anyway,I'm stoked about starting this Monday. The fact that I've never worked before (not even part-time) and the idea of getting your own money, although on a smaller scale, makes me feel really grateful that I've been given the opportunity to be more financially independent. It’s about time…

Friday, September 21, 2007

People are never safe from people

Watching Criminal Minds does in a way help you to analyze what's going on behind these crazy+barbaric+disgusting+disturbing+sick people, how every act the 'unsub' did describes him as a person but still, there's no acceptable justifications to their acts. How do people end up like this? How do people resort to such inhumane behaviour? Rapists usually 'just rape' their victim but this particular unsub is SICK. A sexual sadist. Derives pleasure from inflicting pain from others. I wish not to touch on the details- with all due respect to arwah. I can't imagine how anyone can go through such pain, let alone an 8-year-old girl.

Statistics show that crime rates in Malaysia is going down. Nevertheless, the occurance of 'extreme and barbaric' crime is certainly on the rise. What went wrong? Influence of exposure of violence from the media? So called 'western influences'? I believe that in every person, there is that part of you that can kill or hurt another person. It's just that what separates us from these SICK people is that we restrain ourselves from doing it, or actually think of God before committing something so sinful.

I'm not discriminating people who have mental problem or who are sick, it's just that if they know that they're SICK, they can get help,. but of course.. only a minority of them will resort to it.

The murderer should get what he did to the victim. Memang macam binatang. Binatang pun lagi berperikemanusiaan.

Al-Fatihah to adik Nurin Jazlin. Sesungguhnya Allah s.w.t lebih menyayangi anak kecil ini.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007


Now Playing: "Above the Waves" by the Jealous Sound

1. Sex&the city re-runs.I'm still not over it.
2. Wentworth Miller's officially gay.I knew he was too good-looking to be straight.
3. I want want want the whole season of SCRUBS!!! Anyone??
4. HOUSE season 4's coming out on channel 10 this october.OCTOBER - oh well.
5. HEROES season2 will be out soon. Marry me,Milo Ventimiglia?
6. Jesse Spencer is officially moving on following his break-up with Jennifer Morrison (Toldja Sarah.There will always be hope in Hollywood) =P
7. David Duchovny seems a bit too old to be playing the extremely perveted Hank Moody,don't u think? Sorry Hank, you're just not cool enough. (Somehow Californication reminds me a bit of Entourage,except that its's never going to be as good)
8. What's with The Sopranos? Best Show for the Emmy award? Urghhhhh.
9. Futurama is now officially funnier than The simpsons.Fry, I love you..

Monday, September 17, 2007

An ode to no one.

I'm lost...
Stuck in that very hole I chose to dig, still and motionless in the transition of time and callous in the translation of human kindness.

I know I shouldn't be feeling that way.
I know I should piece everything back together,locate where things have gone wrong and what I ought to be doing.
I know I should mend the broken and forgive the forgotten.
I know I should've said what needed to be said at a time where freedom was still a bargain, and words still negotiable at my own discretion.
I know I had a choice.
I know I no longer do.

And now, I'm lost...
Stuck in that very hole I chose to dig, still and motionless in the transition of time and callous in the translation of human kindness.

Have I lost that sense of comfort - the sense of belonging that was once second nature to me?
I find myself nodding - much to my own surprise, if not anyone else's.

I am reclused from the people around me by my own choice, gradually drifting away from the realms of reality, yet I am indifferent about it.

Indifferent I have become.

We don't relive the past, yet aren't we all confronted by them?
And when they do,they'll choose to either greet or haunt you...while you silently pray,hope to be understood.

Sunday, September 16, 2007

One Tree Hill. Just when I thought I'm DONE with the show, my sys downloaded the new season's promo, and ME being ME, am so curious to see what's going to happen- u know, since they'll be showing it 4years after they grad.

I'm dissapointed with myself.

Every dog has its day

Now playing: "The Big Fight" by Stars.

Life’s been pretty generous for some people, including myself.
The Kangaroos won against Hawthorn, which I guess was a surprise to many especially after their humiliating loss against Geelong a few days ago. South Africa (go baby go go!) thrashed England for a stunning 36-0 victory! On the other hand, I had a great time brushing up on my ping pong skills (if any) which turned out to be well worth the walk along Lygon Street. Plus I managed to prepare some baked pasta which wasn't so bad after all AND talk to my Mom, aunt and grandma over the phone last night.

So yeah, it’s been an awesome Saturday for me so thank you God =)

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Clear eyes, full hearts, can't lose

FRIDAY NIGHT LIGHTS. I know I sound like a broken record now but I simply don't care. I LIKE LIKE this show and I can't wait for the 2nd season to start. I'm never a fan of American football, heck it's just too violent for the eyes to watch, but the show did manage to do a god job in capturing the essence of the game. Plus, I'm loving the soundtrack. Explosions in the sky. I hope it wont get 'draggy' as One tree hill in the end, because I think too much happened in season 1 here. Quoting from Haris,' the movie was nice, can't you just get enough of it already?'. I guess you must have known my answer.

Yes people, I'm a tv addict, tho I dont really watch tv infront of tvs now due to my schedule.

p/s: I'm loving Criminal Minds too, the show that is.

Scandinavian queen

Now playing: "Bachelorette" by Bjork.

It's one of my all-time favorite Bjork songs.

Beautifully written.Surprisingly melancholic and very poetic in an almost disturbing way.Kick-ass music coordination.Enough to leave me to my own deep, pensive thoughts.
She may be the epitome of a Scandinavian freak, but a true music genius nonetheless. I suppose it takes a freak to make one FREAKing good music,ey? (and I bet Moby would be more than willing to attest to that.Hehe) =)

Bjork: "Bachelorette"

I'm a fountain of blood
In the shape of a girl
You're the bird on the brim
Hypnotised by the whirl

Drink me, make me feel real
Wet your beak in the stream
Game we're playing is life
Love is a two way dream

I'm a path of cinders
Burning under your feet
You're the one who walks me
I'm your one way street

I'm a whisper in water
Secret for you to hear
You are the one who grows distant
When I beckon you near

I'm a tree that grows hearts
One for each that you take
You're the intruder hand
I'm the branch that you break

Friday, September 14, 2007


I'm officially moving here. The idea of blogging with my buddy, Nabila just gets me excited. Melbourne and KL. KL and Melbourne. Bridging the geographical gap. It's hard to come up with the site name and title for this blog so yeah, I guess the whole layout for this blog has not been finalised yet.

I hope this will be a good beginning for a very long journey :)


This is pretty cool.

I never thought I'd join blogspot since I don't feel the need to have more than one blog. Then again, I kinda like the idea of having a joint-blog, more so with my buddy Afifah here.So yeah...I'll take my chances =)

I mean,how BAD can it be,right? It's not like I'm under the risks of having a joint-bank account or joint-ownership on a house or anything.The worst thing that could possibly happen is the self-embarrassment of exposing my sometimes dull life to the general public, but I guess I've done that anyway so I might as well just go ahead with it.Lol.Anyway, I can't help but notice the automatic draft saver just below this field - it's kind of annoying when something pops up after every sentence you type. A bit of a distraction actually (not that Xanga's any better,hell no) That aside, I'm pretty much stoked about the whole idea of blogging now. A new blog and a fresh new start! Exactly what I need =)

Ok,don't want to go into anything else just yet.Save it for another time.