Wednesday, April 30, 2008

I love the acoustic version!

Cocorosie's "By your side".

Cocorosie's "Terrible Angels"

Friday, April 25, 2008

I just realized that I don't have much to blog about these days.

And that, I find, pretty weird or shall I say unusual.

That aside, everything else in my life is pretty much the same.

I don't know whether to laugh or to cry at this point. I've just finished 4 mid-semester tests and assignments, all of which were in less than 2 weeks! I'm telling you, I deserve to have the greatest weekend ever for putting up with all those shit and surprisingly, am still very much alive.

Wow...How did I do that,again? ;P

Anyways, the very first thing I'm going to do tomorrow morning (that is assuming that I stick to the plan) is to do my laundry then it's Venom (it's a small boutique near where I live) for me. I've spotted a simple yet gorgeous black lace top which I've always wanted and now I'm just a few hours away from getting - no, WEARING it! =) No words can best describe how happy I am (although my bank statements would beg to differ) but hey,a girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do =P

Other than that, I'll just spend a significant amount of time just being domestic - you know...groceries,cooking,vacuuming the house,cleaning my room and all that. And after I feel better after having to do all that, I'll definitely do some accounting work and catch up on past lectures. Will I go out with the boyfriend tomorrow night? Hope so! It's been so long since we actually went out on a dinner date or anything, I really miss those moments. You know what I really want? To really dress up, perhaps wear that black top with my 4-inch ankle boots and pull my hair back and put some make-up on and have a nice dinner or supper with Daniel.Argggghhhh,it's so hard when your bf's actually working 6 days a week =( Oh well - life.

Yikesss,it's almost 3 am here in Melbourne,should be sleeping right now.

It's gonna be a long day tomorrow...

Monday, April 21, 2008

I hate it when guys cave in to their problems, and to make things worse, when they don't tell you what's on their mind.

Or maybe it's just him.

I mean, what do you make out of that? Are you expected to just naturally understand or pretend to, or is none expected of you?

You try to be understanding and all that, but the lack of information isn't helping.

And so you get more upset, but you don't want to let him know cause you think it's best to save him from unnecessary burden. Your girlfriends think so too.

Yeah,it's all good.

But then,shitty days happen and we all don't like shitty days, especially me. Because on shitty days, my mood turns ugly and shitty too.

And to prove my point, I blabbered something really really hurtful and snapped at him when it wasn't really his fault.

Oh my, the guilt!

A shitty day then turns to more shitty days, thanks to myself.

And so he stopped calling,or texting for awhile - it seems forever!

You try to make up for it, but he's too hurt to even bother talking to you.

You just want to let him know that you didn't mean any of it, and that YES IT WAS MY FAULT, and that you're sorry and that you love him so much.

You try,again and again and again,more than your 10 fingers can count. Still no response.

You end up feeling miserable during the predicament. You miss his company, you miss his voice , his touch, his laugh, and just HIM.

I got a taste of my own medicine,all right.

And now thank God everything's back to normal (except for the caving in part but hey,I can live with that).

At times like these, you start to really realize just how much he means to you.

You just can't wait for Thursday to end so you can spend time with him again =)

Saturday, April 19, 2008

Bila saya rajin, akan saya update...

Abg. Syazwan and his cool designs. Afifah finally holding the champions cheque. Yes, sad thing.

Dear friends,

I'm sorry I couldn't post up pictures now or reports of interschool like what have been requested. I was carrying the camera with me the whole time but was caught up in the whole business of coordinating the event. So, I'm waiting from some people to send their pics to me and after that I'll gather them and post it.

On a separate note, I'm really happy with the team I have for this coming AUDC. It might be one that is out of my comfort-zone but I'm glad that it's one of my closest friends and one of my best partner during one of the leagues. I just hope the chemistry now translates back to the team.

Friday, April 11, 2008

Throw that record away

Statistically,there is strong evidence to show that my life is moving at an upward accelerating rate,m'afraid not by my own choice.

Hence, I can no longer afford to meddle with trivial stuff which I so often used to (and while trivial may be a subjective word, what I mean by it includes dwelling upon everyday emotional encounters with the people and surrounding i.e. the bf (sometimes), the crowded tram, the ever-changing weather, the ridiculous amount of workload and perpetual mid-sem tests, my health problem, just to name a few..)

If you ask me, my life is currently being dictated by a superior force called UNI. And although under normal circumstances, I would normally curse my fate, I think it's about time to take full responsibility of my own life. The weird thing is, I think I secretly find this kind of life amusing, ha ha. I mean, I've possibly been the worst impulsive slacker there is, so shifting my focus to being quite the opposite is just as hard as throwing your favorite old record away or watching your favorite pair of shoes get bitten by a stray dog. Yeah, that's it.

My point is; it's hard making these changes but heck, do I really have a choice?


And that, ladies & gents, made all the difference.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

It's times like this that I miss Nabila and Tia

I was unable to get out of bed this morning. After a few days of a runny nose, the ultimate cold is here. I just hope I'll be ok enough tomorrow . I feel bad leaving Zamir alone to call up the judges that is so desperately needed (we have 89 teams this year people! so you can do the maths of how many judges are needed!), I feel bad towards Izat and the other PC committee members pasal selalu tinggalkan mereka buat backdrop and banners, susun-susun meja for dinner. I'm trying to do the best with my situation by sending up some articles to RATIO, the official bulletin this time around. Mah, Nabilah and Faiz is putting a lot of effort in it so do pray that it will turn out great.

I'm always impressed with our BM debaters, the work and commitment they put into organizing this tournament is awesome. You don't know how many challenges they're facing - especially financially. Thus, let's hope and pray that this interschool will be an pretty awesome one like the others!

I hope the girls will do well this time around. The last time we broke was back then in 2005.

p/s: Atif, I'll be sure to post up pictures of the tournament here. Mau request any specific pics pun boleh!

3 years ago..

Yeah, we like taking pictures with our adjudicators back then

Fareez dulu.

Tia yang best! Nabila 3rd speaker selalu duduk hujung, tu lah pasal tak nampak :). Hye Irving.

I have a feeling that Ezanee was judging this.

Ayap and Anati macam adik-beradik. Anati will be debating this year!

Wednesday, April 9, 2008


You want to settle down, let’s not go there
I’m still young, let’s play fair

Yes, it might be faraway
But we still have to think about it someday

You make me tell all the story
But this time, I’ll let my silence do the talking

I just want to listen
And this time, I promise I’ll be quiet

Can you tell me all your observations?
Cause I just had my best conversation

Please don’t tell me I need a reason
You’re with me..

Monday, April 7, 2008

It's sad.Heart-wrenching.

Sunday, April 6, 2008

of being emo selalu

Love is blind, it makes people go stupid, it makes people sacrifice themselves, it makes people lose their identity and who they are, it makes people be who they're not supposed to be (and I point this out in a negative mode). Tapi, please lah...

How can you live with only love? How long can you remain blind and see that things are not as perfect as you think or potray it to be. Can't you see that you're turning for the worse? I heard love is supposed to make a person be a better person, but it's different with you. 10 years from now, is love itself enough to sustain a relationship?

If this is love - I don't want to be anywhere near it. Yeah, I said it and all of you can say how miserable and cruel I am.

[I can't believe that there still exist some good malay telemovie left on tv, just watched one at rtm2 and I like everything about it except the actress. Actually, she acted quite well for me to really dislike her, and yes, it relates to the above.]

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

There's always two sides of a story Geert! part 1

For it is not up to me, but to Muslims themselves to tear up the hateful verses from the Al-Quran

Muslims wants you to make way for Islam, but Islam does not make way for you

The Government insists that you respect Islam, but Islam has no respect for you

Islam wants to rule, submit and seeks to destroy our Western Civilization

In 1945, Nazism was defeated In Europe

In 1989, communism was defeated in Europe

Now, the Islamic ideology has to be defeated

Stop Islamisation

Defend our freedom

some lines from "fitna"(hahaha, no wonder why it's called fitna!)

I have to say that at first I was furious when I watched it. I don't even know whether it's permissible for me to watch it knowing that it's something that insults the very reason for my existence. On the spirit of this blog which is to "let the world think what the want", the only thing I have to say for now is that, yes, people should be allowed to have their freedom of opinion, but please.. your opinion must be based on something that you know, something that you know is based upon something that's concrete and not based upon your limited knowledge( or should I say zero knowledge). For you to say that "Islam is a retarded culture, and the Koran is the very reason for that" is being totally ignorant of the nature of man. In my opinion, even if you might find my religion a retarded one, I would say what happens right now, all the cruelty that you say is happening is not due to the following of practising the teachings of the Al-Quran, it's due to NOT following it. Culture and religion should be distinguished. Yes, a religion may influence culture but does the religion condone that part of the culture that you say is being propagated by the religion?

The movie was bad. Really bad. But if you ask me, the main reason why the movie was so bad is not on the 'insulting muslims part' but it's the called nit-picking. Taking some verses, translating it literally, connects it to some cruel events that even most Muslims would never tolerate, and then generally labels the whole religion and it's teaching as that. Assuming that it's the very purpose of that religion.

If there's one thing I learned, is that the Al-Quran should never be interpreted independently without the other verses. Ok, I shall put up the other verses when I get back from IIU.