Monday, April 21, 2008

I hate it when guys cave in to their problems, and to make things worse, when they don't tell you what's on their mind.

Or maybe it's just him.

I mean, what do you make out of that? Are you expected to just naturally understand or pretend to, or is none expected of you?

You try to be understanding and all that, but the lack of information isn't helping.

And so you get more upset, but you don't want to let him know cause you think it's best to save him from unnecessary burden. Your girlfriends think so too.

Yeah,it's all good.

But then,shitty days happen and we all don't like shitty days, especially me. Because on shitty days, my mood turns ugly and shitty too.

And to prove my point, I blabbered something really really hurtful and snapped at him when it wasn't really his fault.

Oh my, the guilt!

A shitty day then turns to more shitty days, thanks to myself.

And so he stopped calling,or texting for awhile - it seems forever!

You try to make up for it, but he's too hurt to even bother talking to you.

You just want to let him know that you didn't mean any of it, and that YES IT WAS MY FAULT, and that you're sorry and that you love him so much.

You try,again and again and again,more than your 10 fingers can count. Still no response.

You end up feeling miserable during the predicament. You miss his company, you miss his voice , his touch, his laugh, and just HIM.

I got a taste of my own medicine,all right.

And now thank God everything's back to normal (except for the caving in part but hey,I can live with that).

At times like these, you start to really realize just how much he means to you.

You just can't wait for Thursday to end so you can spend time with him again =)

2 comments:

HRH Fiza said...

aww. that's really sweet babe. btw, I feel like hugging you =o

guess I just miss you.

nabila said...

Likewise babe,likewise : )