The one with the unfinished Contracts revision

Siapa nak ikut sekali? I know it's corny but jom lah!! Since Celine Dion's tour price range is way above what I can afford, why not this? :) Maybe I can treat Mama to this instead but I doubt she'll be jumping out of her seat hearing this. Alan Menken's music is one of my best childhood friends, it would be interesting to revisit it.

Mama told me yesterday that May might be another interesting month for Malaysian politics. It is rumoured and I couldn't again stress, rumoured DSAI has 50 people from the national front willing to join him and if my calculation serves me right, that's enough for the opposition to form a new government with him as the PM. I have no idea whether this is even permitted by the law or how this is even possible but then again, it is a rumour.

Let's see..

And the worst part is when you can't do anything about it

I wish some things were different
Where you and I were more similar in other ways
Yet different is the reason why I like you so much


This whole religion thing’s not the problem for now, but then who am I kidding? Of course it matters. The fact that it matters is the reason why I wish some things were different.

I hate goodbyes

I hate goodbyes

I MISS MISS MISS my mommy :(

The one with the future uncertainties!

Something

Something in the way she moves
Attracts me like no other lover
Something in the way she woos me

I don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now

Somewhere in her smile she knows
That I don't need no other lover
Something in her style that shows me

Don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now

You're asking me will my love grow
I don't know, I don't know
You stick around now it may show
I don't know, I don't know

Something in the way she knows
And all I have to do is think of her
Something in the things she shows me

Don't want to leave her now
You know I believe her now

From one of the group that successfully stands through the test of time and apparently this is most played song in afifah's ipod right now after If I Fell and With You.

Anyway, my dermatologist used to say (back when I was 13ish and even in my pre-adult-teen-years) that when you get older, you won't face breakouts anymore or even if they do come, they only come once in a while because it's all due to the instability of hormones when you're a teenager. Oh how wrong they were!

I'm 20 years old and am still facing the same problem. Today, I had this sinking feeling it will never go away. And it's a sad sad realization.

A perfect stranger

I wish that we had met each other at a different circumstance
Like in a restaurant when I am dining with someone else

We’d brush shoulder against each other for a second
And just when you start to come nearer, I’d beckon’

You say sorry, I stare and you glance back
But then I turn and walk away and leave it like that

Because if you ever did ask for my name or ask me out for dinner
I wouldn’t know if I could ever say no for an answer.

The one with the irregular postings

Nabilah told me the other day that 'Once you've reached 20, turning 30 will be in a blank of an eye'. It does sounds right eventho it's been only a day.

For the 1st time in my life, I really feel like an adult and it's not a bad thing.

[Final exams will start next Friday till the 5th of April. Wish me luck! I need all the luck this time.]

I really like Organisational Behaviour.
And I don't mind accounting at all.Hope it's not too early (or late) to say that.
I am,however,indifferent about Business Finance or Quantitative Methods2. I mean,sure I don't hate the subjects but they don't exactly give me a sense of happiness either so there you go..
My point is,I can see myself working harder for this semester,which I suppose would be a good thing.I mean,I really don't have a choice now that it's my second year and possibly THE most crucial time ever,academic-wise.

On a personal level,I honestly have no idea where I stand.Oh shit,does sound bad, doesn't it? Lol.I am inept or perhaps just ignorant (to be exact) at letting myself, or other people know about my whereabouts (apart from the fact that I am confused with myself,needless to say). Let's just say that I'm in my comfort zone - whether it's my relationship,my weight,academics or as far as my financial prowess is concerned. I know I've got to kick it up a notch, but sometimes life is just bearably dull for me to argue or take notice. All I need is a better wheather (it's fucking 38-40 degrees here!), a good day at the gym and a nice dose of dark chocolate to boost my endorphine level.Then I should be fine :)

Anyways,it's Easter holiday nest week and I'm counting the days before I get to see my mom - less than a week,woohoo! I miss her. It'll be interesting to see how we'll spend our time together cause usually it's us and the whole family so yes,I'm looking forward to it! I haven't planned much plus I don't plan to jinx it but basically,what I have in mind so far is Great Ocean Road (fingers crossed) and the rest would probably be the normal shopping,touring around the city and eating out - all expenses paid courtesy of mommy dearest :) Hope you'll have a safe journey,mom.

Oh God,it's almost friggin midnight here and I am somewhere in the secluded area of the comp lab right now due to the (unsurprisingly) spastic internet problem at my place. Bleurghhh. Will post something soon. Enjoy the upcoming weekend :)

For a change

Bumped into a friend in Melbourne Central just as I was helping myself to the original glaze doughnuts I bought in Krispy Kreme minutes before. Well... more like a friend of a friend but I think it's safe to say that we're friends now all right =)

Anyway,I offered her some in which she graciously accepted one. The next thing I know, I was having the best conversation I had in about a week or so.

As much as I was hoping to avoid the topic though, it came up anyway.

Here we go. Not again.

I mean, telling it is no biggie but having people question my choice was another thing.

"Oh my god,FINALLY," she said with a cheerful smile.

I shot a (hopefully) honest smile back, and grin sheepishly.

"Tell me about it. How did it happen, who is it and all that."

Honestly, I hate explaining those kind of things - what more for the umpteenth time but I did my best to answer in a brief few minutes.

We then spoke for a further 20 minutes or so and you know what?

I'm really glad that I bumped into her and for the conversation itself.

Very liberating.

Sometimes it's easier (and perhaps healthier) to have a conversation with a stranger (well,she obviously wasn't one but you know what I mean) than to have it with someone really close to you. I don't know...I think the objectivity helps,and the fact that they don't know you too well makes it more enlightening and less judgemental from both mine and her part. It's always interesting to a get a fresh new perspective and it amuses me how things intertwined - turned out we both were on the same wavelength and on the same boat (wherever that is...LOL) =p